Thank You My Friends..

During our small farewell gathering held yesterday I was asked to provide some pep talk basically on how I felt during my tenure in UTP. I started off philosophically with a story about colors and how I painting it for the last 7 years in Registry. During the first few years I’ve tried so many colors painted to the white canvas hoping that somehow or another, my superior and colleagues would appreciate it heartily. And I did just that. I’ve painted it with nice metallic blue in color. Though sometimes it was not really blue, not even near the color blue, but being Fadil that have been well received in Registry, my painting was generalized and well accepted.

My tenure in Registry will end in few days’ time. I will be relocated to a new place with a new environment, new perspective and definitely new challenges. I need to re-paint and will not be able to depend on the nice metallic blue color that was well received by my superior and colleagues in Registry. I need to paint using different sets of colors now and hoping one of them will be accepted by my new superior and colleagues. I just need to continue painting and put new effort to the work.

That was my piece of advice not only to Siti that will leave us for good but also to myself – which really lack of motivation at this moment of time. I’m hoping God will bestow his mercy on me, I really need that…

P/s – 

To Siti, thanks for all the nice words. You are good on your own now as you’ve transformed yourself from ‘white and naïve’ to a wise ol’ lady..

To others, my superior and colleagues in Registry, thanks for being with me through thick and thin, laughter and sadness. My respect to all of you…

Mode: Cintan, Time: 11.21pm, Friday night...

Tuhan Jagakan Dia

Hanya dirimu yang ku cinta
Takkan membuat aku jatuh cinta lagi
Aku merasa kau yang terbaik untuk diriku

Walau ku tahu kau tak sempurna
Takkan membuat aku jauh darimu
Apa adanya ku kan tetap setia kepadamu

Tuhan jagakan dia
Dia kekasihku ’kan tetap milikku
Aku sungguh mencintai
Sungguh menyayangi setulus hatiku

Walau ku tahu kau takkan sempurna
Takkan membuat aku jauh darimu
Apa adanya ku kan tetap setia kepadmau

Tuhan jagakan dia
Dia kekasihku ’kan tetap milikku
Aku sungguh mencintai
Sungguh menyayangi setulus hatiku

Tuhan jagakan dia
Dia kekasihku ’kan tetap milikku
Aku sungguh mencintai
Sungguh menyayangi setulus hatiku

Tuhan jagakan dia
Dia kekasihku ’kan tetap milikku
Aku sungguh sungguh mencintai
Sungguh menyayangi setulus hatiku

-Motif Band-

Congrat Kiki, Capri

Kiki has made it. Although it was not a straight As but still it is a flying colors as far as I'm concerned. I guess you deserve what you are struggling for. 

 

Next is to get a good boarding school for him. I prefer SMKA Al Mizan as compared to others that he has chosen. But let see whether with that kind of result could bring him anywhere. Otherwise, let just continue with PMR and SPM at home. I did that last time and I'm sure he could do the same too. Anyway, congrats Kiki. Jangan mintak lebih2 untuk hadiah...

 

 

APPOINTMENT

 

After five years at the Registry, I've been summoned to be transferred to other department starting early next year. It's a promotion that comes with new challenge, new perspective, new staff, new environment and so many new things. Am I glad? Frankly speaking I am not so sure whether this is good or otherwise. One things for sure, my BP rose to a record 170/105 last week that makes me wonder whether I still have the joie de vivre to push myself forward. 

 

 

P/s - Aku kena lagi byk relakkkkss.. 

 

After So Many Years…

Seingat-ingat aku kali terakhir aku warded di hospital adalah pada tahun 1986, masa kena jaundice kecik2 dulu… kira lama sangat dah tu. Biasa la in and out dari hospital sebab anak2 yang warded. Tu biasa tu.. tapi bukan  warded diri sendiri. So bila last Saturday yang lalu, aku diminta untuk warded..pehh!! stress tahap maksima lebih2 lagi bila kena duduk diam2 dalam MRI lebih 25 minit.

Trauma 26 tahun lalu sebab ‘bertarung’ dengan doctor cina tu pegang tangan kaki aku nak ambik darah masih belum habis lagi, memang sah la jangkaan aku yang post-MRI impact lebih menyiksakan. Daripada perfect BP 124/79 sebelum MRI kepada 150/100 setengah jam selepas tu. Lemah lutut sama lenguh2 bahu kesan kenaikan BP tu masih terasa walaupun dah keluar wad 3-4 hari ni. Stress tahap dewa2 betul..

Ceritanya tulang C5 paling bawah aku dah slipped. Kata doctor sebab duduk lama2 sangat. Mungkin betul tapi yang confirmnya sebab aku stressedkan pinggang masa nak mula main bola balik. That way like a year ago. Lepas pada tu sakit di pinggul tu on and off. Kalau angkat berat sket, sakit. Kalau duduk lama sket sakit. Nasib baik kalau masa tu tu..tak pulak sakit. Lagi kuat ada :-)

So lepas ni nak kena buat laser treatment sebab C5 tu taklah terlalu kritikal. Maknanya dia belum terlalu kuat menekan saraf walaupun kaki kiri dah mula terasa sedikit insensible (numb). Doktor suruh secepat mungkin tapi aku rasa kena settlekan hal pejabat sama tenteramkan jiwa lara ni dulu. Esok2 lain pulak jadinya kalau BP tetiba burst.

P/s - aku kena byk rilekkkkkks……

Thank You Datuk...

Selepas tujuh tahun dan tujuh bulan di Tronoh, akhirnya pada 31 Oktober, 2012 Datuk Dr Zainal menamatkan kerjayanya di institusi ini. Datuk memulakan kerjaya pada 1 Mac 2005 kira-kira sebulan sebelum aku mendaftar sebagai pekerja di ITPSB. Dua hari lepas adalah hari yang menyedihkan bagi semua warga institusi, melebihi misteri persoalan bagaimana keadaannya pengganti kepada Datuk nanti?

Satu makan malam penghargaan kepada Datuk dan isterinya, Datin Rosemi diadakan dan telah dihadiri oleh lebih daripada separuh warga UTP. Meriah dengan aktivti tetapi keseluruhannya penuh dengan emosi. Prof Fadzil dalam ucapannya menggambarkan keseluruhan penghargaan atas segala pengorbanan Datuk kepada UTP. Aku juga beremosi tapi memandangkan Zaihan di sebelah kanan, Nuzah di sebelah kiri, staf2 lain di hadapan, maka ku tahan juga air mata dari jatuh berderai….

Antara kata-katanya seperti berikut: -

“……..Tonight, as the UTP community gathers to express our deepest gratitude and appreciation to Datuk Dr Zainal, we are also honouring and celebrating an individual who is leaving behind a huge impact on the university with a legacy to be cherished and remembered in our hearts and minds. We are here to commemorate the successes that this university has enjoyed under his leadership over the past seven years and seven months. 

If you recall Datuk, when you first arrived at UTP and chaired your first Management Committee meeting – you had asked us a question. In particular, your question to us was - where are we now? That simple, but thought-provoking yet a correct question had sparked a lot of imagination within us – and we started to imagine things that were at one time, almost unimaginable. Thus, one cannot speak about the achievements that the university has experienced thus far without mentioning the  Transformation Plan, which is the brainchild of Datuk.

That's how I get into the transformation study team. I had few good moments with Datuk when we struggled in preparing presentation especially...EAC, AAC, TP, etc.. Good moments that I will cherish forever..

Datuk had realized the challenges that were staring at our faces at a very early stage, and being a true leader, Datuk showed his proactiveness by taking a bold step to embark upon a journey – a journey that have since then, transformed our lives almost entirely, and had changed the way we think and act. These changes have impacted all aspects of the university, from academic delivery, research output, student development, operational excellence as well as linkages with our stakeholders….”

Datuk’s traits that I could not agree more: -

“….Perhaps the most notable and appreciated quality of Datuk Dr Zainal is his genuine warmth and concern over his people. I believe this springs from Datuk’s sincere interest to develop his people, both the employees and the students. Datuk is always ready to listen to our suggestions and even problems, and is ever willing to engage with staff as well as students. This has actually made our life easier as the management is able to make informed decisions based on the feedback solicited.

Another particular trait of Datuk Dr Zainal that is extremely important for us to remember and emulate is his motivational skills. I am always, and still am amazed by Datuk’s ability to motivate everyone around him, especially the students. As a lecturer myself, I find it an excruciating task to motivate them, but for Datuk – it seems like a breeze. 

When you are with the students, you are at ease – you can sing, you can dance and you can even play music with them – and not many of us can do the same. You have been generous with your time spent for this purpose, and you have touched the lives of countless students, and even the staff and alumni. In fact, I was made to understand that just last night, you spent more than three hours with the students – giving them advise and sharing them your personal experiences in life…”

Something for Datin too...

“…Behind every great man there stands a woman. On behalf of the university community, I would also like to express our gratitude to YBhg Datin Rosemi Hamdan for her strong and gracious support of our university. It is clear that Datin’s unwavering support and sacrifices have been vital to Datuk’s success and we deeply appreciate her selflessness in sharing her husband with us for the past seven years. So Datin, you can now have him back full time…”

Prof Fadzil could not bear his emotion when uttering these words…

“…No words can express our deepest gratitude to you but..

Thank you for your wisdom

Thank you for your guidance

Thank you for your advice

Thank you for always listening

Thank you for understanding

Thank you for the sacrifices made

Thank you for leaving us a treasured legacy

Thank you for your leadership

Thank you for everything

And most of all, thank you for your willingness to be away from your family to be with us for the past seven years….”

Not to miss some of the quotes from prominent figures: -

“A nation or race is only civilized if it knows how to appreciate its leaders” – the late Tun Azizan

“Carve your name on hearts, not tombstones. A legacy is etched into the mind of others, and the stories they share about you” – famous author, Shannon Alder

“Leadership is not magnetic personality - that can just as well be a glib tongue. It is not "making friends and influencing people" - that is flattery. Leadership is lifting a person's vision to higher sights, the raising of a person's performance to a higher standard, the building of a personality beyond its normal limitations” – management guru, Peter Drucker

P/s - To YBhg Datuk and family, thank you for everything, I hope you will cherish all the good moments in UTP as we do. Happy retirement Datuk.